well, maybe more than 40. . .

OK, I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I could go into a book about all that is wrong with me, but instead of dwelling on health issues that are no longer in my control, I have decided to just change the things I can change and just be content with the rest. This will be my story of the first steps of changing the things I can change. Let's just hope I can do it. If your like me, you never really found any motivation on the internet.Until now! Thanks to others like about.thyroid, and Stop The Thyroid Madness, I hope that by me taking the first steps, I can finally become who I was suppose to be.







Wednesday, September 8, 2010

The Marriage

Well, my health has finally taken a toll on my marriage. I will be leaving today, and not sure when I will be back. He says I need to go "figure myself out". Gee, like I haven't been begging the doctors to do that for the last ten years!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

It is bad enough not knowing from day to day how your going to feel, but to lack support from home is horrible. Not even lack support, but have someone against you!!  Just because you don't see a bone sticking out my leg does not mean that I am OK!!

Oh, you think I am only feeling good when I do things with family and friends?????   ASK THEM HOW OFTEN I MISS SHIT WITH THEM BECAUSE I AM NOT FEELING GOOD YOU ASS HOLE!!!!!
Feeling like shit has ruined my friendships, and ruined MY LIFE and YOU want say it only effects you??? FUCK YOU ASS HOLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I will be leaving soon, and I am going to miss my son so much it hurts. but I CAN"T TAKE IT!

I LOVE YOU JACOB, and mommy only wants to feel better. Thank you for all the kisses you give me when I don't feel good, at least you can understand at the age of 3.
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